I was basically kept indoors my whole life and treated like an unwanted child. Whenever I was around family since I was a child I would get blamed for things with everyone getting angry yelling at me then be taken to be beaten by my mother. Cast out by family since a young age with no trust for anybody & every year constantly blamed for nothings turned into somethings. Accidents, & misunderstandins turned into lifelong problems. Good things misconstrued as bad things. Little bad things snowballed into avalanche of a problem.
Didn’t even get to serve in Navy due to health issues even though I did get to work for them as a civvy.
Personally laying it out I wanna be around people. I want a life. I want a real family. I want an income so I can finally be free but I’m still trapped with them.
Now here I am months later trying to get into projects/initiatives I am focused on for open source to make it better with everybody worldwide, trying to learn to be human like Tarzan did, heal from the worst Multiple Complex PTSD, don’t know how to get work much less remote work so I can earn money to get away from them, have no idea how to function as a person, & want to make friends/chosen family/ build up community but have no clue how to even begin from being away from society for decades.
I’m the definition of alone. If you search “Dandadan Evil Eye Childhood” on YouTube that is me. Completely. Same thing for “Gaara Childhood” & “Naruto Childhood.” Would go as far as saying I almost became a villain. If you were able to see life as a tv show/comic/anime/manga/animation you would be a completely changed person
Would love to make a way to help people learn online how to be human for anyone that goes through anything remotely similar to me to integrate with the people in a good way. First though I must become human so I can then make it happen. (That definitely makes me sound like a bot/ai/robot but that’s just me saying how I truly feel)
Would love to create a donation thing or get work or something so I can work on open source stuff as much as I can and then be free.
Top that with how much it sucks here in USA with all this bullshit happening.
Sorry it just felt good to vent at least a little.
I’ll add my own story to vent.
I was basically kept indoors my whole life and treated like an unwanted child. Whenever I was around family since I was a child I would get blamed for things with everyone getting angry yelling at me then be taken to be beaten by my mother. Cast out by family since a young age with no trust for anybody & every year constantly blamed for nothings turned into somethings. Accidents, & misunderstandins turned into lifelong problems. Good things misconstrued as bad things. Little bad things snowballed into avalanche of a problem.
Didn’t even get to serve in Navy due to health issues even though I did get to work for them as a civvy.
Personally laying it out I wanna be around people. I want a life. I want a real family. I want an income so I can finally be free but I’m still trapped with them.
Now here I am months later trying to get into projects/initiatives I am focused on for open source to make it better with everybody worldwide, trying to learn to be human like Tarzan did, heal from the worst Multiple Complex PTSD, don’t know how to get work much less remote work so I can earn money to get away from them, have no idea how to function as a person, & want to make friends/chosen family/ build up community but have no clue how to even begin from being away from society for decades.
I’m the definition of alone. If you search “Dandadan Evil Eye Childhood” on YouTube that is me. Completely. Same thing for “Gaara Childhood” & “Naruto Childhood.” Would go as far as saying I almost became a villain. If you were able to see life as a tv show/comic/anime/manga/animation you would be a completely changed person
Would love to make a way to help people learn online how to be human for anyone that goes through anything remotely similar to me to integrate with the people in a good way. First though I must become human so I can then make it happen. (That definitely makes me sound like a bot/ai/robot but that’s just me saying how I truly feel)
Would love to create a donation thing or get work or something so I can work on open source stuff as much as I can and then be free.
Top that with how much it sucks here in USA with all this bullshit happening.
Sorry it just felt good to vent at least a little.